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And I’m okay for a few more minutes.īut for now, I’m doing my best. All the turmoil, the anguish, the anxiety, the pain. And then the moment is gone, and it all comes flooding back. Today I went shopping and bought myself something nice. I’m even listening to guided meditations. I’m reading inspirational blogs and quotes. I’m thinking positively, I’m taking big deep breaths when I need to. I may have felt this once before a long time ago, but I don’t really remember it.Įvery day I’m doing my best to smile and make the day better. That I walk with a skip in my step and a song in my heart. That all my anxieties, worries, and fears are gone, or at least less overpowering. One day I would love to sincerely tell you how fine I am. I wish it would go away if only for a day.

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I’m not sure how to handle today, and I fear what tomorrow may bring. But I open my mouth, and “I’m fine” comes out instead. Please stay and talk to me, comfort me, help make this overwhelming pain stop.” I want to say this to you. When I say I’m fine I really wish you could hear my inner voice screaming, “I’m not fine, and I need help. I feel there are a million demons inside of me, and I don’t know which one needs my attention the most.

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I’m full of anxiety inside, and no matter how hard I try to find peace, it eludes me.

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My soul is crushed, and my heart is full of holes that I’m desperately trying to patch up as best I can. My troubles have completely consumed my life. A body to wrap around tightly to comfort me and ensure me that everything will be okay. My shoulders feel weighted and my arms long for human touch. There’s a darkness in the pit of my stomach that makes me nauseous. There’s a tightness in my chest that won’t go away. Still, I wonder, does anyone have all the answers to these questions that are pounding in my head and causing me grief and anxiety? I wish someone could fix everything that hurts, though I no one else can do that for me. Because I’m afraid my pain is just more toxicity. To think that your demons are not as important or debilitating as mine. I don’t want to bother or burden anyone with my troubles. I’d like to think that you might even care. When I say I’m fine this is what I really mean… I long for the day when it will come naturally, sincerely, and genuinely. Some days I wish I didn’t have to pretend to smile. It’s my new face, and it smiles on demand. I’ve been wearing it for so long now that no one can see through it anymore. I’m doing my best to stay optimistic and to keep faith that tomorrow will be better. I haven’t been fine for a very long time, and I wonder if I will ever know what “fine” actually feels like again. You smiled back and said, “I’m so glad to hear that. I politely replied, “I’m fine” and forced a smile that I hoped would be believable. So much has happened since the last time we saw each other. I can stand today and know that I am a stronger and more compassionate person because of it.“Tears are words that need to be written.” ~Paulo Coelho

It was a really rough period of my life, which unfortunately triggered some mental health troubles, but the situation itself is as resolved as it'll ever be. On a personal note: The situation which is represented is (very thankfully) over. If you use this as inspiration I'd love if you credited, that way I can put you in my special favorite folder: /fav… I love that so many people have been inspired by this I know there's loads like this around now but there certainly wasn't when I drew this in 2011! (Though I'm sure I'm not the only person to have come up with an idea like this XD) Yes, I am the original artist, and no, I didn't copy anything else. One day I'll be able to tell everyone everything's not fine, but for now,Įdit: Wow, never thought this would capture peoples imaginations like it did, it's almost a meme XD Anyone who knows me or has met me at a convention knows I love to laugh and it takes a lot to get me down, unfortunately this is. I am very lucky to have some very close friends I confide in though I appreciate and am so thankful for them. My piece was also inspired by my situation, though things have got tougher recently. Unfortunately some things you have to go through alone. Not because I don't want to talk, because I can't.